Life has been crazy the last few months. Work life especially. I hate the fact that it has affected all my other lives as well. Social life is down in the dumps, climbing life is wallowing in the shits. Oh and did I mention that I didn’t get time off from the office during the two week break over Christmas and New Year? I think I am definitely a very different person right now. I feel like I’m endlessly shovelling an enormous pile of shit which never seems to end. It certainly feels very frustrating to meet one crazy deadline and stare down the face of another impossible one straight after.
Living life with crazy amounts of information in my head is definitely not a nice thing. It’s like noise. Static noise, that is. Climbing used to sort that bit out, temporarily at least. Even that’s not working now because the fucking stress is affecting my climbing so much it’s not even funny. Grades have dropped, strength has dropped. Did a climb today and Bob (read previous posts) felt like he was going to break again…
Fuck this shit. I’m going to bed early tonight and starting early tomorrow when my head is a little more clear.
I can so relate to what you are talking about. In fact, work/life balance is my focus for this year. Actually, I am being forced to focus on that by my management at work.
I am starting training on Sunday for a half-marathon, the first since my surgery. I know what you mean about feeling that the ankle is going to give. That’s your stress talking dude. Sleep is good. Hang in there. It will all connect…I’m with you halfway around the world!
Funny thing is that work/life balance was my focus mid last year when I was down and out after the surgery… That didn’t stick at all. So difficult when you’re juggling so many things at once and ultimately, it gets to a point where work consumes all.
It’s great that you’re starting training soon! When’s the half-marathon? It’s going to be a year soon after your surgery eh? How’s the ankle holding up by the way? You reckon it’s back at 100%? I’m going to try and finish this mountain of work ASAP so that I can get back to climbing proper, without distractions at the back of my mind.